Internet!!

Finally found a spot to update!
I have been loving this autumn weather....
Indian summer stopped by last week
a wonderful last glimmer of warmth before the winter settles itself in!
I have been very beside myself.
I've been a bit stressed out
which usually, causes me panic & persistent worries
However,
I feel I am growing into my age,
I subconsciously have changed my ways,
I have began eating healthier,
meditating , silence and incredibly deep breaths
give me a sort of happy-high
I breathe, take in all of my feelings
and laugh because,
I am a small woman in a massive world
and realize, these problems of mine could be much worse
I am very lucky to live in a country where water is common,
food is abundant and i am loved.
Chuck and I have gone to our spot down by the river every morning this week
it's like a secret garden of sorts....
brick walls,
a small courtyard...
the view of the river
we sit on ledges and get high,
i lay on my back and stare at the sky
tall prairie grass surrounds us
and we walk
and breathe fresh air
and I am relieved.
Our house is coming together
we'll move into it (hopefully) the beginning of December.
its got an amazing porch for all of our plants!
a bigpicture window in the living room for butters to look out
I have a lot to work on
when it comes to Eve dealing with Eve
but
I am motivated to become a better person everyday.