Too many voices in your head drowns out the most important one.

I've really been thinking lately.

About my situation, not so much myself.

but, outwardly..

WHO I am towards others,

WHO I have been to people

HOW I want to present myself in the future.

Now, the past is the past.

Yet there are very significant parts of me
still so attached with the past.

Certain rhythms, sounds, scents,

they all take me back.
(as I'm sure they do others.)
I have built up a "Berlin-wall" emotionally.

*note: not supposed be romantically connected.

I just mean, In general...all of it.
graduating a year early.

moving out at the tender age of 18.

supporting myself and another while working full time.

seeing how life is in the real world..

getting your hands dirty ,
appreciating a hard days work.

punching the clock,
waking early.

wishing I were in school instead of digging and sorting through

sometimes, trash.

Leaving a job I let myself get comfortable at...

to throw myself into an office environment

learning a computer program like a second language.

screwing up at it...

being remanded.

it's all built me into a tough little package that

I am so happy I've let myself take this route rather than

just jumping head first into college,
wasting time and money.

which i know i would've done.

I am more than ready to go back and

LEARN!

We've been walking along the river lately

it's really left me feeling

so excited about washing away
the excess.

I've de-cluttered the junk-drawers.

my closet (again...But without holding back!)

I feel like once the unnecessary extra elements of home life

are stripped away,

you can see what you really have....

and appreciate it.

Less laundry,
piles of old papers,

old Cd's,

old notebooks from Chuck's college days.

It's time for simplicity.